It's all back, every single detail.
When will it end?

i find it reali hard to let the unhappiness go.. i guess it's cos of my rather pessimistic character, i tend to hold on to memories which r hurtful n sad rather than those tat r happy.. i reali dun want to be emotional n stuff, but sometimes these bad memories reali haunt u like crazy.. Take u by surprise and leave u in pain again.. It's like old wounds being ripped opened again.. But i know tat life goes on, n i'm trying to live my life.

Time passes reali fast when u're happy.. My cousins flew back today.. i'm feeling kind of sad.. Without my cousin popping into my room to talk n stuff.. :( i think it'll be 2 yrs or more be4 i can get to see her again.. Reali hope she can come again when i've more time to bring her around..

i think during the CNY period i reali bonded wif ppl.. i think i'm much closer to my paternal cousins now.. It reali wierd how ppl change when they grow older.. Haha.. In the good way of course.. N i seriously feel like staying over at my godma's place for mahjong n volleyball n soccer wif my cousins.. Wish my holidays can come soon! Cos of YOG, we'll be having longer break! LOL.. Happy ttm.. But then which means yr 2 sem 1 got shorter break.. Haha.. Oh well.. Haha..

Life's getting a lil more stressful cos exams r coming, but my life is still pretty fulfilling.. Even though there're still some stuff bothering me, i'm still happy wif my life now.. At least i've parents who love me, a sister to bitch wif 24/7, a reali wonderful bf, n a bunch of crazy friends..

i dun reali know exactly who read my blog, but to those who read it, i wish u joy n happiness! :)

So much stuff kept within, none to share.

Aniwae, i think the song 'wo ai ta' by Ding Dang is not bad.. Simple yet heartbreaking lyrics..

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方最初的天堂
最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深
越互相伤害越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

CNY wasn't as fun or as enjoyable as i expected it to be.. But it wasn't tat bad either.. :) Met up wif ppl i haven't seen in a long long time.. Bonded wif cousins n friends.. Grew fatter, cheeks r more chubby, but i think it was a good break from school.. Can't wait for the freaking 17 weeks of holidays.. N mid terms r coming soon, first paper is on the 24 feb.. Tell me how sian it is.. :( Haiz.. Oh wellsssssssssssssssssssssssss.. No pt whining.. LOL >.<

Go study le.. Happy CNY, ppl!

Random: My pink room! LOL..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR N HAPPY VDAY!!!!
Wish tat all of u collect loads n loads of angpows, n pockets be bursting with cash!
N may all lovers stay crazily in LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stay healthy n be happy! *smiles* :)
<333

Some ppl reali push others beyond their limits.
N i think it's becoming kind of cruel.
Or it's probably becos i'm too weak.

Dear ORD le!!!!

This semester is reali tougher than the previous.. So tiring.. Plus it's not onli school stuff tat's giving me pressure, but other stuff tat involves ppl who matter alot to me..

Don't know when i'll breakdown, but for now, i'm still hanging on. Good luck to me.

Ytd was the first time i cooked for a guy.. Lol.. Yes, i tried cooking for my baby! Lol.. i think it didn't turn out tat good.. Ehh, in fact, it was edible.. Lol but it didn't taste tat nice.. But i guess it was a reali meaningful vday gift though.. i reali tried.. Ppl who know me know tat i can't cook, or even bother to cook.. N i'm reali glad he didn't get any food poisoning or lao sai.. He was so sweet, even though the cheese mushroom turned out reali awful, he still finished it all..



It was a reali cheesy meal.. :) lol
Pizza! The nicest among all of the food..Cheese baked pasta.. ^-^ not bad ehh..Cheese mushroom, taste like -.-'''N he just refuse to take pics properly.. -.-'''

CNY is coming n i still haven't buy new clothes.. Tried my luck at FEP n bugis street with dear, but OMG, i couldn't find anything.. Sian to the max! We gave up searching for clothes n shoes, n went for steamboat.. Saw suf at the steamboat place, he slimmer le ehh.. Lol.. i ate so much la, but baby totally owned me, he ate like twice the amount i ate.. Siao one.. LOL.. N guess wat, i saw my idol, Remy Ong ytd at the steamboat place.. N i spotted him the minute he walked into the place.. N i was so freaking nervous cos he was just sitting next to me!!!! AHhhhhhhhh!! I asked dear discreetly if tat guy was reali him, but dear can't recognise him.. N when we were leaving, i was walking in front of dear, so i didn't realised baby went back to ask tat guy.. N u know wat, HE'S REALI REMY ONG! Omgomgomgomg! But i didn't take pic wif him or get his signature cos i didn't dare to go back.. Cos i know i'll start saying rubbish n illogical stuff cos i was so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so freaking nervous n excited! But i'm still damn happy to see him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! N dear said i was blushing like mad.. LOL.. Omg :)

N my health is not getting any better, getting sick so often.. Reali tired.. :(

Hey baby, 3 more days to ORD! i love u!

Sometimes i think the both of us r fools..
What to do? i dunno..

Things r getting better, i suppose..