Sometimes i reali believe that i'm hated in this family. It's just too obvious from the tone n actions tat i'm reali hated. i don't even feel much being at home, i rather be outside with other ppl. i made the effort to try to fit in n be nice, but i can't do it anymore.. It's so tough to live to all of ur expectations, how i'm supposed to behave, to act like part of u all. But it's just so hard to fit in. Maybe if i'm gone, they'll all be happier. i'm onli gg home because of my sister, cos i reali love her. i want to be at home becos of her. But i just can't hide my jealousy, cos it's far too obvious tat mum loves her so much more. It's reali tiring to live life to please others. N it's today tat i reali felt so unwanted. i think no matter wat they do to make me feel better, i doubt i can ever feel the same way again, becos now, there's nothing left within. Just emptiness.

Things can reali get veri difficult.

i'm damn pissed over some stuff. Seriously.

Who're u to comment about my friend? Did u even know what exactly happened? Did u even know how she felt? i didn't even react in the way u did, cos i know that i onli heard her side of the story. But u just criticise my friend when u were so ignorant. Seriously. i think u should go reflect on yourself n ask tat good friend of yours to think about the things he did. Whether he would like it when others do the same thing to him. If u're so protective of your friend, let me tell u this, i'm equally protective of my friend. All these might just be a misunderstanding that could be solved between them, but since u started all these, i can almost tell u for sure that now, there's no turning back. To u she might mean nothing, but to alot of us, she's reali impt. i'll not tolerate those sarcastic words that r targeted at my friend, to intentionally hurt her, so just F **K OFF.

The past 2 weeks have been reali enjoyable for me..
Bdae celebration for dear n i, chalet, tkd, etc.. i know i need to study harder, n i will.. i reali know when i should be working hard.. Just can't wait for holidays! N it's just the start of the sem.. LOL.. Nice..

Last week of staying in for baby.. Tml is his last book in be4 ORD.. i'm reali happy for him.. So so happy..

Gotta go do homework n revision le.. Nite all.. :)

i don't think my life will ever be the same again since the day u stepped into my life n heart 2 yrs ago.. i love u, sweetheart..



*muacks*

Ytd (22 jan), i reali felt super super xing fu.. To be able to celebrate my bdae n 2nd anni wif dear, n my bdae wif my family.. N my friends remembered my birthday! ^-^ N my fat cong cong bought me a dog plushie, but he named it bear.. WTT.. -.-''' i think i changing its name to nua nua.. LOL.. Cos it's always ruan mian mian n nua looking.. It's so cute la.. Omg.. Seriously.. i love nua nua! LOL.. Dearie n i went to watch the movie, 'Jump'.. Okie okie movie, but then quite hilarious.. Haha.. Ya lo.. Then we had nice food after tat.. Simple day wif simple happiness.. ^-^ N i'm reali happy tat my family also celebrated wif me! Reali touched tat they took off time to do so.. ^-^ i onli took photos wif fat cong cong, but didn't take any wif my family (cos all look kind of tired, lol..).. I love my family n fat cong cong!

i love my fat cong cong, veri veri much!

Today was a pretty screwed up day in school, all the rushing from one tutorial to another.. The classrooms r so far away from each other.. So i was basically like a mad woman.. After school i met up wif the sweetest boy on Earth! LOL.. Cos is his birthday!! Went to bowl n play at arcade, n had dinner tgt.. i love taking long walks wif him.. i don't know if he knows tat.. But it's nice to have stupid talks while walking.. He's just sooooooooo freaking cute.. LOL..

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, YOU FAT WORM! Lol.. :) Be more mature pls (although i know u'll never be).. LOL.. Hearts u many many!!

So cuuuuuuuuuuuuute!

N know wat, he seriously don't smile properly in pictures.. :(

Nite all! Tml is an early day again!

Had an awesome day todae! Meeting up wif dearie for bowling n tkd training, plus all the bitching during tkd wif the juniors.. i guess i'm feeling the exhaustion tat has been building up since don't know how long ago.. Damn tired.. Got to rest early tonight..


School is starting soon, n life is becoming dry again.. Reali wish i can do better this coming semester..


Aniwae, this is the reason why it's damn embarrassing to bowl wif dear.. He scored 165 n i scored 95.. WTT.. -.-

N i'm missing him now, n it's onli just 2 hrs ago we last seen each other.. i think i'm becoming too reliant n dependent on him.. But how can i help it when he's so reliable n dependable.. LOL.. i love u, silly boy..

STUPID ADD DROP SHIT.

<33333333333333
i'm in love!

i'm getting emotional again.
When it comes to tat particular thing tat i hide in my heart, away from ppl, i feel like i can't do anything about it.. i can onli try to suppress it. But it has been haunting me, non-stop. i can't even sleep lately. It's reali becoming harder to bear with it. At times i even lie to myself, just to feel better for tat few minutes. i'm not trying to sound pathetic or whatsoever. i'm just afraid it'll continue to feel so painful deep down in my heart. i'm reali not tat strong or brave.
This time, i'm reali lost.

It's unbelievable how much i actually miss u..

Nite all, i'm gg to sleep le.. Bb..

Holidays r coming to an end soon..
Can't wait for the next holiday to come, which is 15 weeks long..
Sad :(

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

It's so freaking fast man.. 2009 is over.. i'm gg to be 20 in 21 days.. Like WTH.. 20. Feels damn old.. Oh well.. 2009 was reali unforgettable for me.. Especially the collection of my Alevel results.. It was reali disappointing, how i failed to perform up to my expectations.. But i'm reali glad i could make it to the course of my choice.. Plus just when i tot i'll screw up my sem 1 exams, my gpa turns out to be alright.. i dun think i gt anything to complain about though.. Things turned out relatively fine for me..

Reali want to thank the ppl who were with me thru both happy n sad times thru this yr, those who made this yr unforgettable in the good way.. Reali love all of u..

May all of u have a fruitful yr ahead! Have a happy 2010!
p.s I LOVE MY DEARIE!!!!!! TO THE MAX! Thanks for being such a lovable boy!