i guess when ppl get older, priorities changes.. In life, it's difficult to strike a balance in things u do n the commitments u have.. There r so many decisions u've to make every single day, from wat u're having for breakfast to what u're gg to wear when u're out ltr.. It gets reali tiring n upsetting.. It's like u can never get the best of both worlds, n u'll nv be able to please everyone.. N u might even end up upsetting some ppl n hurting them.. At times like this, i reali dunno wat to do.. No matter wat u choose, there'll definitely be a party tat gets upset..

i mean, if most ppl (just my assumption) encounter these feelings too, why can't all of us just be slightly more understanding towards each other, n have more forgiveness for one another? Why muz we force someone to conform to our thinking n the way we do things? We r made in such a way tat we r all unique, n i dun see the need to conform to someone else's thinking.. Just because u're rigid n inflexible about things, doesn't necessarily means tat i've to do everything like u said.

Fuck those stupid curfews. How many times have i broached to u about this topic? Each time all of u just brushed it off like some kind of joke, or even say stuff tat is reali annoying. It's so embarrassing to be still having 10pm curfews even when i'm gg to be like freaking 20 yrs old next yr.. i can see u r letting me go slowly, but i can still feel ur unhappiness n reluctance. Wat's the point of saying u'll let me go, when every time i want to be free, u hold on tighter after each time? Giving me those looks n tone when i'm gg out.

Seriously, wat's the point? Not like i didn't try to gain respect n trust, i've done wat i can, talked about it wif u. But u know wat, i reali dun feel as though i'm getting the amt of freedom n respect i deserve. N i guess i'm beginning to get rebellious. i reali want to do the exact opposite of wat u tell me to do, but i'm reali controlling myself, because i still respect u.

i can't bowl, seriously.
Damn embarassing when i go bowling wif dear. His score is usually 120 plus, 140 plus, n mine? 50, 60, 80.. -.-
Siaaaaannnnnnnnnn..

LOL.. Jkjk, won't die de la.. Hahaha.. i hate it so much tat holidays will be ending in a matter of 2 weeks.. So shitty.. Can't wait for baby to book out.. i want my cycling n nice food..

N i'm gg crazy over the Korean variety show, 'We Got Married'.. Lol.. Damn funny.. Ooh, i go play game liao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My poor lil boy's sick.. :(
That makes me a sad gal..
N guess wat, i'm sick too.. WTT.

i went back for taekwondo training todae.. Injuried my neck n right shoulder cos i didn't break fall properly.. N a bruise at my lower back.. Good job.. -.- i'm as accident-prone as ever.. After training, had dinner wif juniors n sir at IKEA.. Talked loads n loads of crap n kept teasing emo boy n kunyi.. Hahahaha.. When i'm wif my tkd ppl, i feel reali comfortable.. Maybe not with the juniors' juniors yet.. But with petrina n kunyi n yingta n sir, it's reali fun..

i punched alot todae, wif ppl holding target for me.. N i think i scare ppl wif that aggressive punching.. i think punching is the best way to relieve stress n vent my unhappiness.. i almost cried, lol, i know it sounds ridiculous, but yes i almost did. i guess it's becos i kept alot of things to myself, n i kept suppressing it.. i feel so much better now, although my knuckles r peeling n damn rough now.. Can't wait for the next training session..

i'm feeling super tired now.. zzz

i think i'm sleeping too much, n one month holiday is simply too short..
So damn bloody short..

Can't wait for taekwondo training tml..
i'm still contemplating if i should go for black belt, since i don't reali think i'm good enough yet..
Oh well..

Oh ya, i'm gg crazy over bowling, although i kind of suck at it.. Hahaha.. But it's enjoyable..
N my baby loves it too! So lately both of us have been bowling almost everytime we're out..
But my score still sucks! LOL..

i bet my dear's napping now..
Reali want to listen to his voice now..
Missing him so much..

N i love the song 'Like a child' by Kim Dong Ryul..
The lyrics is so true, i guess it's probably the reason why it's so real n touching..

i reali want pizza NOW.

Fulfilled a lil wish of mine todae..

i'm loving post-exam life! Lol..
Stress free!!!!!!!!!!
But i'm nt looking forward to the getting results part la..

Many activities coming up soon!
i miss tkd! N we're having mass training n bbq wif juniors n seniors.. Like from Yingta's batch to my juniors' juniors.. LOL..
i'm praying hard tat my tkd standard didn't drop too much, cos i'm thinking of gg for black tip grading.. If i deproved too much, it'll be veri hard to catch up.. :(

i gained like 1kg since start of the holidays.. Which is onli like 3 days?? Like wth..
Pigging out like crazy.. Food food.. LOL..

Wish weekends come quickly!!!!!!!!!! So tat my dear YT can pei me watch new moon.. LOL..
Oh my tian, ninja assassin looks not bad oso.. LOL.. Nosebleed time!

Nite all! i'm gg to sleeeeeeeeeeep le..
ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

Exams r over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had steamboat n went bowling wif my dear boy right after my last paper ytd..
Can't believe it's over! i mean exams.. LOL..



Exam period is like -.- damn tiring.. Finally get some rest n time for family n friends..
N my dear boy is soooooooooooo cute!!

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww, i getting zi high le.. LOL.. Dumb pok..

Nite all!