It seems like nothing exist forever.
My grandpa passed away. He just left us suddenly, and leaving most of us feeling the guilt and living in regret. It's so sudden tat even till now, i still don't believe he's gone, feels as though if i go back to grandparents' place i'll see him lying on the sofa snoring super loudly, or hear his occasional thunderous sneezing. But it's all gone now. N every time i think of him, my heart aches. Nothing can bring him back now. i'm sorry, grandpa, for not appreciating u more n for taking u for granted. i know it's too late for regrets, but i'm reali sorry. i reali miss u.

This space is dead.. LOL

The feeling of being alone sucks.
i think i'm being selfish for wanting ppl to be with me, n i know it's not something that can be forced also. i don't know what i can do, just feels alone.

Something made me reali happy today..
A little act tat made me feel so appreciated n loved..
Thank you for making me feel so special.. i love u, dear..

i won't ever forget u for the damage u've caused, for destroying my self-esteem n my beliefs.

i can't, because by forgetting it means to forgive. But to start with, i nv had the intention to forgive, i just want u to experience it, the exact same thing u did to me. Even till this day after more than 4 yrs, i still have the urge to punch u in ur face. i reali wish u would be hurt too, then maybe u'll know how it's like to cry every nite, to feel as though it's ur fault tat ur loved one cheated on u, and to believe it's because u're not good enough. Cos of u, i became so paranoid, just because i'm afraid of getting hurt again, n i find it hard to trust ppl now.

U no longer matter to me now, actually u no longer mattered to me since the day i found out. i guess i just hate u too much. N seeing u today just reminded me of the things u did, which u didn't have the balls to own up. U smiled at me n spoke as though nothing happened before, but it's not as though i can't rmb the things u did. If it was 4 yrs ago, ur apology would have mattered so much, but it's too late. U gave up the chance to explain n apologise, so there's no point doing it now.

Work has been pretty alrite.. Just reali tired cos i survive on 3 n a half hours of sleep everyday :(

i dunno wat to say. Damn tired. :(